This week has kicked me in the bum, leaving me exhausted in all aspects of my life. Anxiety has taken over my brain and has physically impacted me with feeling sick and unable to keep food down, aches and pains throughout my body, lack of sleep or motivation and the constant feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop. It’s like I’ve forgotten the little things that I can do to maintain a heathy balance of the mind, body and spirit.
I kept apologising for things I couldn’t control. Making silly mistakes at work, doubting myself and those around me. Trying to create solutions to problems that don’t exist anywhere other than my own mind. Distancing myself from my family and friends because it’s exhausting trying to pretend your ok because you don’t want to be “that girl”
Trying to rationalise and explain things logically even though anxiety isn’t logical. It’s a sick and twisted dark cloud that feels like it suffocates, that can sap the life and energy out of us if left unchecked.
But you know what? The best thing that I could have done is get the help that I needed. As scary and overwhelming as It is anxiety isn’t who I am. It’s not something that I will allow to define me. I have to promise to make time for myself and allow myself to re focus my energies on finding my balance, figuratively and literally. and always remember that it is ok not to be ok and as cliched as it sounds, tomorrow is a new day and anything can happen and talking to someone you trust is a MUST!
If you or anyone you know, need help you can find helplines here https://www.healthdirect.gov.au/mental-health-helplines
Mr Gibbous and The Wildling 