There are moments in life when we want to hold time still — to bottle up the laughter, the tiny hands, the whispered “I love yous” at bedtime. As a mother, I often find myself wishing I could protect my son from every storm, from every ache, from every lonely moment he may one day face.
This letter is for those moments — if ever I’m not there to whisper the words myself.
To my beautiful boy,
If you are ever reading this and I’m not by your side, I want you to know something that matters more than anything else:
You were never alone. And you never will be.
Even when life feels heavy.
Even when the world feels quiet.
Even when your heart wonders where I’ve gone —
Remember, my love is stitched into every beat of yours.
A piece of my heart lives inside you. It always has. It always will.
I prayed for your joy more than I ever prayed for my own.
I carried your pain in silence, not because I had to, but because I wanted to — so you wouldn’t have to.
I wasn’t perfect. I got tired. I stumbled. But every single day, I woke up and chose to love you fiercely. I tried to love you the way I always wished I had been loved — with softness, with safety, with all the light I had.
You were never my burden.
You were never just a responsibility.
You were — and will always be — my reason. My greatest purpose.
If ever life feels confusing or overwhelming, I want you to hold tight to these four truths:
You were deeply loved. Always. Without conditions. You are never truly without me. I’m in every breeze, every memory, every heartbeat. Your heart knows the way — trust it. You are wiser than you know. You were made for this life. You are strong enough, kind enough, and brave enough.
And my sweet boy —
Even if you can’t hear my voice, feel my arms around you, or see my smile at the end of your day —
Know that I’m still with you. In the quiet. In the chaos. In the love you give and the dreams you chase.
Forever your muma.
Forever proud of you.
Forever loving you.
— Mum
This isn’t just a letter to my son. It’s a legacy. A reminder. A promise.
That no matter what, love leaves a light on — even when we’re gone.
If you’re a parent reading this, I hope it reminds you to speak your heart today.
And if you’re a child missing your parent, may you feel their love in these words, too.
As I write this, I’m watching your sweet face relaxed in sleep, as small breathes puff past your little lips, I’m awed, amazed and terrified at the fact you’re coming up to two years old, full of boundless energy, wonder and joy, exploring the garden with your tiny hands and curious heart daily. You make my world brighter with your laughter and curiosity. There’s so much I want you to know, some thoughts about life, love, faith, and the beauty of the simple things, so you can carry them with you wherever you go.
Firstly, let’s talk about love. Never forget that I love you to the moon and back again! Even more on your difficult days! Especially on your difficult days, Every day no matter what! Love is the most powerful thing in this world. It’s not just something you feel—it’s something you show through kindness, patience, and forgiveness. Love yourself as much as you love others. You deserve it! You will have moments when you wonder if you’re enough or if you’re deserving of love. In those moments, I want you to remember this: You are deeply loved just as you are, by your family, by the world, and by God. Love is the greatest thing you’ll ever give or receive. Love deeply and without fear. There will be times when it’s hard—when your heart feels heavy—but don’t let those moments close you off. Love will always find a way to heal you if you let it.
Have faith. Faith in yourself, in others, and in the world. Not everything will go the way you hope, and sometimes, life will feel unfair and scary. In those moments, hold on to the belief that better days are coming and that there is a lesson in every moment. Faith is like the stars—hidden by the clouds but always there. Life won’t always be easy. Sometimes you’ll feel lost or unsure, but that’s when faith comes in. Faith is trusting that even in the hardest times, you are never alone. There is a bigger plan at work, even when you can’t see it. Whenever you feel overwhelmed, look to the sky. As long as you can see the sun by day and the moon by night, you’ll know you are never truly alone. These celestial companions are a reminder that peace, awareness, presence, light and love are always with you. You are enough, just as you are. There will be moments when you doubt yourself or wonder if you’re good enough. I promise you, you are. Don’t look to others to define your worth; it’s already within you. Be kind to yourself and let that kindness shine on others too.
Take your time! Never rush through life. Childhood is a gift, filled with moments that seem ordinary now but will be treasures when you’re older. Live in the present moment, Chase butterflies, laugh at silly jokes, dance and sing like no one’s watching and keep finding joy in the simple magic of the world around you, appreciate the small things: the feeling of sunshine on your face, the sound of leaves rustling in the wind, and the way the rain makes the earth smell fresh and alive after a storm. These simple joys will remind you, even in the toughest times, that life is beautiful. You will face challenges, my love. There will be days when you feel afraid or unsure. But remember this: You are braver and stronger than you know. You can do hard things, and even when you stumble, you’ll learn and grow. Don’t let fear hold you back from trying or dreaming big. Faith is the antidote to fear, so lean on it whenever you need to
When I watch you explore the world around you, I am reminded of how connected we are to the earth. Your tiny hands reach for flowers, your eyes light up at the sight of a bird, and your laughter fills the air as you chase after butterflies. It’s beautiful to see how naturally you understand what so many of us forget—that we are all a part of nature, and nature is a part of us. I want to tell you a secret: this world is alive with wonders, and every single creature plays its part. From the tiniest ant building its home to the majestic trees reaching for the sky, everything is connected. Even the honeybees, small as they are, carry a great responsibility—pollinating the plants that give us food, flowers, and beauty. Without them, the world would be a lonelier, emptier place. As you grow, I hope you’ll stay in sync with nature. Listen to the wind as it whispers through the trees. Feel the rhythm of the seasons as they change. Watch the way the sun rises each morning and sets each evening, painting the sky in colors no artist could ever match around the face of the man in the moon. These things remind us of the cycles of life—of beginnings and endings, of rest and renewal.
The earth gives us so much, my love. It gives us the air we breathe, the food we eat, the water we drink. It provides us with beauty and shelter, and it teaches us lessons about patience, resilience, and balance. Because of this, we have a responsibility to care for it, just as it cares for us. Remember, giving back to the earth doesn’t have to be something big or complicated. It can be as simple as planting a tree, cleaning up a park, or letting the wildflowers grow so the bees and butterflies can thrive. When you care for the earth, you’re not just helping plants and animals—you’re helping yourself and everyone who shares this planet with you. Always walk gently on the earth, and remember that every living thing has a purpose. The ants, the worms, the trees, the rivers, the birds—they are all part of this great web of life. When you honor and protect them, you honour and protect yourself, because we are all connected.
When you feel small or insignificant, like you don’t matter in the grand scheme of things, think of those honeybees again. They may be tiny, but they are essential. You are, too. Your actions, no matter how small, can ripple out and make the world a better place. When life feels confusing or heavy, I want you to go outside. Stand barefoot in the grass or the ocean, sit under a tree, feel the sun on your face and the water lapping at your feet, or listen to the birds as the wind brushes through the green leaves. Nature has a way of bringing clarity and peace to a restless heart. There is something sacred about feeling the wind on your face or hearing the rustle of leaves—it’s a gentle reminder that life goes on and that you are part of something much bigger than yourself. So go outside as often as you can. Breathe in the fresh air, feel the earth beneath your feet, and take time to notice the little things—the buzzing of bees, the rustling of leaves, the way the clouds drift lazily across the sky. These are life’s quiet miracles, and they’re always there, waiting for you to notice.
Family is your foundation. Our ancestors lived so we could thrive. We are your first home, your safe place, and your constant support. Never forget to cherish these moments with us—playing, laughing, and simply being together. One day, you’ll look back and realise that these simple moments were some of the most precious. Love your family fiercely, and don’t take these connections for granted. Gratitude is a secret key to happiness. When life gets complicated, focus on the simple blessings: a warm hug, a shared meal, the smell of rain, or the feeling of the sun on your face. These little things will ground you and remind you of the beauty in the everyday.
You will face challenges, my love. There will be days when you feel afraid or unsure. But remember this: You are braver and stronger than you know. You can do hard things, and even when you stumble, you’ll learn and grow. Don’t let fear hold you back from trying or dreaming big. Faith is the antidote to fear, so lean on it whenever you need to. As you grow, the world will tell you who to be or what to do. Always listen to your own heart first. God has given you unique gifts, and your path is yours to walk. Never be afraid to stand out, to speak your truth, or to follow what makes your soul light up. Always stand up for the little guy and lead with a gentle soul and a kind heart
Finally, my sweet boy, never stop being curious. Or being yourself unapologetically. Keep asking questions and seeking answers. The world is a beautiful, mysterious place, and there is so much to explore. Find joy in the journey and don’t rush through life. Every season has its gifts, so take your time and savor them. You are my greatest joy, my biggest blessing, and my truest inspiration. Wherever life takes you, remember that you are deeply loved by Daddy and I, by your family, and by the Creator of this vast and beautiful universe. You are never alone, my son—not when you can feel the sun, see the moon, and hear the whispers of the world around you.
When Frederick first came into our lives, we thought we were adopting a pet. What we didn’t realize was that we were welcoming a whole new family member who would fill our home with love, laughter, and joy that we couldn’t imagine life without.
From the moment Frederick bounded into our world, he changed everything. There’s something uniquely magical about the unconditional love of a dog. His eyes sparkle with excitement every time he sees us, and his wagging tail alone can lift even the hardest days. Frederick isn’t just a pet; he’s a constant reminder of life’s simple pleasures, a source of laughter, and a warm friend who’s always by our side.
Frederick has a unique ability to bring happiness into every moment, no matter how small. Whether he’s leaping around in circles, convinced he can catch his tail, or trying his best to sneak his way onto the couch for a cuddle, his antics are a daily dose of laughter. Watching him roll around in the grass, a goofy grin on his face, or playfully chase a butterfly in the yard, I’m reminded of what it feels like to live in the moment.
And while his silly moments keep us smiling, his companionship brings us comfort beyond words. Frederick knows when someone in the family needs a little extra love. During tough times, he seems to sense it, resting his head on our lap or curling up beside us as if to say, “I’m here for you.” There’s something profoundly comforting about his quiet presence; he’s a reminder that sometimes, just being there is enough.
Frederick has also brought play into our lives. His enthusiasm for fetch, walks, and tug-of-war is contagious. Rain or shine, he’s ready for adventure, coaxing us outside with a wag and a look that says, “Come on, let’s play!” In chasing after him, throwing sticks, and running together, he brings out the kid in each of us, helping us rediscover joy in the simple things.
And then there are the snuggles. Oh, the snuggles. At the end of a long day, there’s nothing quite like Frederick curling up beside us, his warm fur against our skin and the soft rhythm of his breathing. His gentle snoring is like a lullaby, a soothing end to a busy day. It’s in these quiet, cozy moments that we feel most grateful for the love he brings into our lives.
Frederick has taught us that family isn’t defined by species but by love, loyalty, and the simple act of being there for one another. He’s woven himself into the fabric of our lives, becoming not just a friend but a true family member. Our days are filled with more laughter, play, and yes, a bit more fur on the furniture—but we wouldn’t have it any other way.
In Frederick, we’ve found more than a dog; we’ve found a furry soul mate who reminds us to embrace life with joy, love with abandon, and find happiness in the simplest of moments. If you’re ever lucky enough to have a dog like Frederick in your life, you’ll know exactly what I mean.
Walking through the towering redwood trees is like stepping into a realm where time slows, and nature reveals its quiet strength. As sunlight filters through the immense canopy, the world above transforms into a kaleidoscope of light and shadow, a reminder of the earth’s ancient energy. The air is cool, heavy with the scent of pine and moss, grounding you as your feet meet the soft, damp forest floor.
The rustle of leaves underfoot and the whisper of the wind through the treetops create a harmonious symphony, blending with the sound of the river in the distance. It’s not just a walk through the woods—it’s a journey into the heart of the earth, where every step draws you closer to the primal pulse of the planet. The smell of the earth mingling with the clean, rushing water fills your senses, reminding you that here, everything is interconnected
As you approach the river, the sound of water cascading over rocks grows louder, more insistent. The water, crystal clear, glides and dances as it moves swiftly downstream, a testament to the raw power and beauty of nature. Standing on the bank, you feel an overwhelming connection—to the land, to the ancient trees, and to the lifeblood of the earth itself.
Breathing deeply, you can almost taste the richness of the soil and feel the stories that the trees, the river, and the land have witnessed over millennia. This is more than a walk; it is a communion with the earth, a moment of profound connection to country, where the energy of the land flows through you as naturally as the river itself
I had a pop. He was a larger than life Aussie bloke. He loved footy, fishing and having a beer and a yarn with his mates.
His idea of formal attire was his good jeans, flanno and his RM Williams boots. Usually I’d find him though in his polo shirt, short shorts and the same pair of thongs (flip flops) that he’d worked in to fit the shape of his feet perfectly, to go up the bowls club for the meat raffle of a Friday night.
Well it was when I was little anyway. Some of the best times of my life were had running around with the neighbourhood kids and making some great memories getting stuck out on sandbars, running from the “BIG” waves and collecting millions of sea shells, then proceeding to leave them in buckets all over his garage for weeks and weeks. He would grumble about it asking “what the bloody hell are you doing with all those bloody shells” as he tended to do, but he never threw them away. He would continue to grumble and mutter about them for the rest of the summer but the very next summer, id come back and they still be there. And then I’d proceed to collect more. I wonder what ever happened to those shells?🐚
My pop Jack, bought me and my sisters bikes to keep at his place for when we’d visit each holidays. I remember looking at these bloody bikes and imagining breaking all the bones in my body. They were these large thin framed old school bikes that had those really large thin tyres. I refused! I convinced myself I couldn’t ride a bike because I was terrified of what would happen IF i fell off. Old jacky boy told me to shut up and get on and proceeded to push my down his driveway, no helmet or anything.
That’s how I learned how to ride a bike. And how to swim, and fish and play poker -Texas hold ‘em five card draw, he taught me how to mow a lawn and how to stake up a tomato so as to get the best harvest. He taught me how to make friends with wild birds , which gave me a love for feeding the magpies on his back fence, which my mother also does at home, he talked to little green tree frogs 🐸 in his pots out back, he gave me an affinity for old English/Aussie songs, along with a strange sense of nostalgia when I hear the M.A.S.H opening Theme song.
He had an above ground pool out back when we were young, surrounded by wooden decking. I remember running around one day with my sisters and my eldest sister, stepped straight on a rusty nail. Pop pulled that nail out, wrapped her foot in plastic bags and said, all sorted, go swim 😂
He allowed us to be kids, we could do and go and be whatever we wanted as long as we were awake at a reasonable time (which according to him was sparrows & if you weren’t up he’d spray your bedroom window with the garden hose, saying he was watering the garden 😂), as long as we were respectful to our elders, had manners and were home when the street lights came on, he was good.
Pop, he wanted us to go out and live, to learn to see and do. To fall down and scrape our knees but get back up and get on with it anyways. To literally keep our heads above water if we started to drown. He would have a beer with the neighbours while they and we and their kids played wheelie bin cricket until he couldn’t see the ball anymore and he’d call it and we’d all go inside for a BBQ and movies whilst all the girls got their hair plaited by the kids mums
He took us fishing out on boats and taught us how to clean and fillet a fish 🤮 he kept me honest when playing board games cause he wouldn’t allow cheating and to this day if I smell sausages grilling under a griller or have hot chips with chicken salt and sauce on fluffy white bread with butter, I think of him
Things change though, as things tend to do, as families fall apart, and people grow older and move away, we lost touch. I regret that. I miss out on so much with him.
He was a tough love kinda guy and I was intimidated by him growing up. But now, as an adult, through all of the noise of the past, I can see parts of myself in him.
My love of the ocean, my love of all things nature and growing, I remember he had large pothos and monsteras climbing everywhere. Fish tanks all over his house. It’s like looking in a mirror and realising that no matter what happened in the past. Or how things were left at the end. Or the time I lost with him for one reason or another, I’m grateful that I carry parts of him with me through my life and through my actions and beliefs
Miss you pop. Hope you’re having a beer in the sky, kicking back and enjoying the sunshine.
There are times in life when your resilience and strength are tested beyond measure
When you feel like you just get out of bed simply to run through the motions, where you’re treading water to just get through the day
Where you’re tested to your absolute limits and feel like you cross the line from mad to sane multiple times a day.
Where you have to dig to your very core to keep putting one foot in front of the other. At times this feeling can be fleeting, and sometimes, that feeling can last years
Then out of nowhere you have that little spark of a moment, that little flash of gratitude that brings you back to the present
And you can either choose to stay in the deep, treading water until you’re so exhausted that you give up and drown or you can choose to grab on to that little spark of gratitude like the life raft the universe means it to be and build on that feeling of gratitude and love. It is not easy. But it’s your choice. Make no mistake about that!
We can blame others for our lot or we can really show up for ourselves, as hard and uncomfortable as it may be and take responsibility, face up to our most toxic of traits and realise that these tools and traits we used as a coping mechanism to keep ourselves safe and protected through times of trauma
If we put in the work, whatever that may look like, these coping mechanisms will eventually become obsolete and unnecessary because we’ve learnt what was required of us to level up
In times of great pain and suffering, it can be so difficult to remember that. And we fall back in to our feelings and subsequently old toxic patterns which end up hurting us and causing more harm than good. But that’s ok.
We are human beings, we are allowed to fail. We are allowed to stumble and find our way back again. As kids we are celebrated for trying to walk and when we fall every one claps and praises us for trying. As adults we seem to forget that we are allowed to fall down. And when we are down we are allowed to cry and scream and yell. However, we are also allowed to ask for help so we don’t live there
And the more we implement the new healthy outlets and skills we learn while we “put in the work” when we do inevitably fall back in to those old patterns we can bounce back far quicker and with new knowledge and insights in to ourselves and who we are right now
If you’re in pain or you are suffering or you feel like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders. I understand. You are not alone. But I URGE you. Please. Ask for help! It’s ok to not be ok but it won’t get any better if you do not ask for help and talk to people you love and trust
Sometimes simply talking it out of your own head with someone else can allow you to stop talking things in circles and view things from an alternate perspective and provide relief for something you believe is insurmountable
Tony Robbins once said “the more rules you have about how people have to be, how life has to be for you to be happy, the less happy you’re going to be” When I read this it made me stop in my tracks. This simple statement had me necessarily questioning and gauging where I currently am in my growth zone.
It pushed me to pause and reflect, to honestly evaluate my toxic traits & those things holding me in old patterns and pulling myself up when finding myself reacting or making decisions purely based on ego. Assessing and addressing those things that for sure do not align with not only my highest sense of self, but that which no longer serves me.
I’m so grateful for this lesson, especially now more than ever during another lockdown, with fear and contentious energy clouding the collective awareness for one reason or another, because It gave me a nudge to look at myself and my life as well as those people in it from all perspectives.
Providing me the knowledge that putting expectations on yourself, your relationships, romantic or otherwise, how you think life ought to be based on ego, what we think we deserve based on ego, can be the biggest cause of feeling unsatisfied with the now. This is what causes a disconnect between what we have and what we think we want.
When we feel disconnected, this is when the negative starts to creep back in and we begin again to react from our toxicity, paving the way back in to old patterns. Its a lesson Wildlings, in reminding ourselves that yes, life is throwing challenges our way and yes we are having to really dig deep to find the resilience that is already inside of ourselves, however it should also be a lesson in gratitude and realising that it could always be worse! Reminding us that we are always one decision away from being in somebody else’s shoes.
The grass is NOT always greener on the other side, it is greener where we tend to it, where we water and feed it, where we put in the work and care for it, so I urge you to keep your heads held up and looking forward. Keep battling your toxic traits to create the life that you’re dreaming of and remain focused on the things that you have to be grateful for, the blessings you have in your life. Find the joy in the little things and remember to keep smiling! 🦋
There are moments that I find myself continuously questioning everything in my life, down to the minute details of my day to day. Things so mundane like, what if the bus is late, what if I don’t meet a work KPI, what if the lockdown gets extended, what if the roof falls down, what if, what if, what if. It can be exhausting because usually the things that are questioned are the perceived “bad” things. The things that we fear could go wrong and potentially impact us tremendously. Is this conditioning? Are we taught only to question the bad things, the unhappy things, the consequences, the things that we fear could happen? I say yes!
As children most people are taught to fear the unknown, told things like “no Johnny don’t jump in the lake because you’ll catch a cold and get very sick which then means you won’t be able to…”, cause and effect, action and consequence, In so doing removing the childish wonderment of “anything could happen” However, what if little Johnny jumps in the lake and doesn’t get sick? what if he jumps in the lake, you jump too and you both have the time of your life?
Even the definition of the phrase “what if” in the Cambridge dictionary literally states “what if, is used to ask about something that could happen in the future, especially something bad” But WHY does it have to be something bad? Why can’t we question the possibility of something amazing happening in the future? Why are we ultimately conditioned and taught to notice the negative, the bad things and told to set out plans for every possible scenario or conversation that in all likelihood will never actually happen? I think a change of mindset and consciousness is in order here.
I believe that it is definitely ok to ask “what if?” Yet I think it is very important to ask the positive “What if’s” about the possibilities of the future. To ask what if all my dreams come true? What if I do succeed, what if I will get that job, house, partner? Of course these things may not all happen and usually don’t at the time we want them to but what’s to say that they never will? Isn’t that one of the beauties of life? That anything can happen? That’s where the excitement lies. Imagine if we knew what was going to happen in the future, wouldn’t that remove the drive for more? Wouldn’t we be stagnant? Don’t be afraid of the “What if’s”, trust the process.
I urge you to be more conscious and aware of your thoughts, pause once in a while and ask yourself, are my thoughts and actions bringing me closer to my goals? Spend your energy wisely! Invest in yourself and the things that add value to your path. Focus energy on what will allow you to align your vibration to the life you want and deserve. Above all else Wildlings I wish for you to lead with love and leave the world, people and higher consciousness better than you found them
Happy 2021 Wildlings, the New Years first full moon In Leo has already come upon us bringing new energy and growth and asking us to reflect on the inner work we’ve put in over the last cycle, to validate where we have come from and where we are going, to remain focused on releasing what no longer serves the higher frequency of self.
Remember to remain focused on your path and be mindful that this next moon cycle brings with it large energy shifts which may cause some emotional upheaval but with that will come a lot of heart and personal growth. If we can remain focused on the bigger picture, trust the process and hold true to our awareness and consciousness, this moon cycle will help by illuminating the path and providing a guiding light for the year ahead.
With that said, I leave you with a favourite prose to guide you on your next adventure with love and light 🦋
It has taken me many years to truly believe and understand that we MUST respect our body when it asks us for a break, respect our mind when it is seeking rest and above all to honour ourselves when we need a chapter break. 2020 has been the most challenging year yet but I guess that’s where the growth happens.
Focus on yourself and your goals and remember that YOU are the most important person in your life. YOU deserve all of the love, care and support that you give to others. So do the work for growth, but also identify that sometimes self care is THE MOST important thing you can do. Remember, self love takes so much strength and courage.
It may take some time to find what you really want or what and where your path is actually leading, but please take time to appreciate yourself leading up to the festive season and end of year when everything will be about other people’s wants and needs. Reflect on how far you’ve come and validate that although you may not be where you think you ought to or want to be, you certainly are not where you used to be.
And always remember there’s no growth in your comfort zone, there’s no comfort in your growth zone. Hope you all had a beautiful day and if you didn’t, stop what you’re doing and take a DEEP breath in, hold it for four seconds and exhale slowly and repeat until your focus shifts to calm. Goodness. And realise that yes it may be tough now but if you look at “it” from a different perspective you’ll realise you have a lot to be grateful for
Mr Gibbous and The Wildling 