There are times in life when your resilience and strength are tested beyond measure
When you feel like you just get out of bed simply to run through the motions, where you’re treading water to just get through the day
Where you’re tested to your absolute limits and feel like you cross the line from mad to sane multiple times a day.
Where you have to dig to your very core to keep putting one foot in front of the other. At times this feeling can be fleeting, and sometimes, that feeling can last years
Then out of nowhere you have that little spark of a moment, that little flash of gratitude that brings you back to the present
And you can either choose to stay in the deep, treading water until you’re so exhausted that you give up and drown or you can choose to grab on to that little spark of gratitude like the life raft the universe means it to be and build on that feeling of gratitude and love. It is not easy. But it’s your choice. Make no mistake about that!
We can blame others for our lot or we can really show up for ourselves, as hard and uncomfortable as it may be and take responsibility, face up to our most toxic of traits and realise that these tools and traits we used as a coping mechanism to keep ourselves safe and protected through times of trauma
If we put in the work, whatever that may look like, these coping mechanisms will eventually become obsolete and unnecessary because we’ve learnt what was required of us to level up
In times of great pain and suffering, it can be so difficult to remember that. And we fall back in to our feelings and subsequently old toxic patterns which end up hurting us and causing more harm than good. But that’s ok.
We are human beings, we are allowed to fail. We are allowed to stumble and find our way back again. As kids we are celebrated for trying to walk and when we fall every one claps and praises us for trying. As adults we seem to forget that we are allowed to fall down. And when we are down we are allowed to cry and scream and yell. However, we are also allowed to ask for help so we don’t live there
And the more we implement the new healthy outlets and skills we learn while we “put in the work” when we do inevitably fall back in to those old patterns we can bounce back far quicker and with new knowledge and insights in to ourselves and who we are right now
If you’re in pain or you are suffering or you feel like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders. I understand. You are not alone. But I URGE you. Please. Ask for help! It’s ok to not be ok but it won’t get any better if you do not ask for help and talk to people you love and trust
Sometimes simply talking it out of your own head with someone else can allow you to stop talking things in circles and view things from an alternate perspective and provide relief for something you believe is insurmountable
Hoping for brighter days for all
If you need help please reach out and visit this link https://www.health.gov.au/health-topics/mental-health-and-suicide-prevention/mental-health-and-suicide-prevention-contacts
Mr Gibbous and The Wildling 